this is the way i live...

so i really don't want to get in the habit of using other people's words in my blogs....but i just got done watching the movie Bobby with my parents and....wow....let me tell you....that was a great movie. the cast was incredible (i'm in love with shia lebeouf) and robert kennedy was an amazing man. his words rang out to a generation. he understood the youth of american in a way no one else could. after hearing his mindless menace of violence speech from the movie....i started to read some of his others. he was way ahead of his time. so far ahead that he was killed because people were scared of him. he spoke openly on violence and how the only way to stop violence was to cleans it from society. in others word....there is really no hope. people will always hate, they will always look at another person and judge them. there is no escaping it.

"but this much is clear: violence breeds violence, repression brings retaliation, and only a cleansing of our whole society can remove this sickness from our soul."

i think our world in a lot of trouble. we have been brought up in fear.

fear of the person standing next to us.
fear of what is different.
fear of change.

we are taught to fear what we want the most.
to want what is easy.
to take the easy is a way out.
we need an out from the fear instilled within us.

we can no longer look at another person in the eyes without questioning their motives.
our country is paranoid.
but as far as i can tell we have to be.

"When you teach a man to hate and fear his brother, when you teach that he is a lesser man because of his color or his beliefs or the policies he pursues, when you teach that those who differ from you threaten your freedom or your job or your family, then you also learn to confront others not as fellow citizens but as enemies, to be met not with cooperation but with conquest; to be subjugated and mastered."

its all about fear. its why we fight with each other. why we yell. why we hurt so much.....we're all just too afraid to ask for help from one another. we see others as enemies....even our friends. they are our competition in the game of life. whether its for grades or money....attention or love. we are constantly questioning their motifs because we are frightened by them. scared they will only hurt us more. because they do and they will.

kenndy could see this. we long for happiness and contentment.....something that is found in the person sitting next to us.....but we are too scared to ask for it from them. we are too jaded to believe they will give it to us.
instead we run.
we dwell on pain because it is real.
we rely on our own strength.
we hurt.
and we never move forward.

"But we can perhaps remember, if only for a time, that those who live with us are our brothers, that they share with us the same short moment of life; that they seek, as do we, nothing but the chance to live out their lives in purpose and in happiness, winning what satisfaction and fulfillment they can.

Surely, this bond of common faith, this bond of common goal, can begin to teach us something. Surely, we can learn, at least, to look at those around us as fellow men, and surely we can begin to work a little harder to bind up the wounds among us and to become in our own hearts brothers and countrymen once again."

I might have found a new hero tonight.
a hero in a man who was deprive of his chance to change a nation.
deprived of showing compassion to a compassion-less society.
he was a living threat to fear.
and fear destroyed him.