chemistry of a car crash

so wow...yeah...first post. i just decided i needed something different.

since....

A. myspace is being taken over by "non-conformist" emo kids who like to take pictures of themselves at weird angles while they complain about how much their parents hate them
B. xanga is for the mentally unstable people who like to over-analysing themselves
C. livejournal is just lame
D. and facebook has become a stopping ground for stalkers in training

....i've decided to get away from it all. do something different. something a little more me. i'm not holding back on this one. whoever wants to read it can read it. if you don't like it then you don't have to read it. you don't have to leave me little comments trying to cheer me up or agreeing with what i say. you can read it, think about what i've said and maybe try to see it from my perspective or you can read it and think i'm the most completely disillusioned human being on the planet. either way works for me because i've learned that no matter how hard we try...we can never see the world the way someone else wants us to. i want something that's real again. not the same "sugarcoated and edited for content" blogs i've had in the past. although i've always been one to tell the truth, i've also always been one to people please as well.

this time i want the truth.
so this is how i feel.


yeah i'm a multimedia major so i take a lot of pictures and make a lot of movies....i'll try to post some cool ones whenever i write a post. this one is one of my most favorite pictures ever. it has kind of an errie, intense feeling. the look in my friend's eye is just something that is rarely captured on camera. plus she kinda gave me the idea to start this blog....so i guess i'm thanking her by putting up her picture...haha nice "thank you" right? what can i say...i do what i can.