never take friendship personal

god.....there are two things i really hate....

a.) not knowing what the hell is going on

and

b.) seeing my friends upset ALL THE FUCKING TIME

both of which are happening as i'm typing this.



"i'm pissed because....i have.....this problem"
"the problem is caused by you....but only effects me."
"i obviously am more upset than you because i am me and you are you."
"you can't understand why i feel like this because once again i am me and you are you."
"my feelings are the only ones that matter because....duh....i'm obviously upset."
"you don't care about me....so fuck you"
"my life sucks and you don't get it."
"i act the way i do because of the way i was brought up and i can't change me."
"me"
"i"
"this isn't about you....it's all about me"
"we have to fix this because i need to feel better about myself."

all via IM because...

"i'm to scared to confront people in person."

as i'm listening to my friends fight next door....the only thing i'm asking for is that they don't walk out. if they walk out....they'll be walking away from the hardest thing in the world to create....a good friendship.

a good friend.
someone who knows all about us....and loves us anyways.

....so the yelling has ceased....the laughing has begun....and i guess for now everything is once again on pause...because truthfully....can deep issues be resolved in 10 minutes?